Music

For some reason, I'm more eloquent when talking in music than in words. Being a very private person, and not particularly gifted in eloquence, at times I find it difficult trying to expound my innermost feelings. Via talking, that is. Which leads me to another problem. It takes two to tango, and to confide into someone means you actually require the presence of another person. Not just any person though, as you have to take into consideration one who has a sympathetic ear, a big heart and a mouth that is not commonly known as a motor-mouth.

Not an easy find. Hence music enters into the picture.

Music comes from the depth of the soul. It is transparent. Like a picture, we could shade it in any colour, match it according to our moods. Be it gloomy and black as an approaching storm, pale blue and green that depicts calmness and contentment, a delicate shell-pink for a happy light-hearted frolic, roaring and rolling like the white-tipped waves of the ocean with the freedom of gulls soaring in the sky, or orangy red in a moment of ardour. The sensitivity of the soul poured out in beautiful hues, a canvas of crystallised notes that lay bare the innermost secrets and untold longings. The private story of a person unwittingly betrayed by music.

Unconsciously we unburden ourselves, lending flights to our feelings and fancies. In the language of arpeggios and glissandos. Swaying lightly in tempo rubato, the sacred hymns transformed to golden prayers. Unspoken prayers straight from the heart, sincere and untainted, conveyed to God in a burst of radiant harmony.

Music enables me to feel very close to God, in good times and in bad. It helps cleansing tears to flow, and I return from each sacred melodious journey feeling stronger and refreshed. It's a therapy that liberates and lightens the spirit, and also serves to release the bonds that shackle the soul.

Music heals.

Postscript: But not when one has to hear one's piano / vocal students butchering and murdering the sacred code of music!!! That is either a hair-raising experience, or a sleep-inducing one! Then the only thought that comes to one's mind is : God help me!!